It has been awhile.
My Christmas break came and went in an alarming fashion. I am now back in Seattle where it has begun to rain again and I'm looking for ways to procrastinate from writing this term's first paper. So here I blog.
Life remains full. I'm not sure if life will ever stop feeling full ever again. It seems that the more I become aware of who I am the more choices I need to make to be present to this life.
I'm in this very interesting class at school right now called Essential Community. It is a class that only MHGS could do. It's incredibly aggravating, challenging, and good. Sigh. But I realized something yesterday, in this class, and it is this:
Community will never move toward you- it is up to you to move toward community. I think we so often look at how we don't fit into places, get frustrated when we are overlooked or not included. We also gravitate to communities where we feel like we fit. I now think that community requires real presence- if I want more authentic community than it needs to begin with me. It also means choosing to hear from those for whom I am different.
Ahh, but bitching about my community frustrations is far easier, and at times much more fun... who needs peace, love, joy, blah blah blah...
On a more personal front, I am missing my dear friends Josh and Raya deeply. My grief kicks up in surprising places and I am amazed at this process of loss. I think being in a relationship has made me miss them more. They were two of my fans- I miss their support, their advice, their encouragement and their senses of humor. I am sad that they are missing out on life. Though I am sure they are loving where they are, so I guess I am sad that they are missing out on my life. I have so much to tell them.
Alright then- better get to the ol' paper thing.
vw
Image: Mary Pratt
