Guilty addiction

So I have this guilty addiction,I read the blog of the happiest family on earth. I cannot help myself, I am drawn to it like a bad accident. It could be my current state of mind, or space, but I honestly can't believe that life can be THAT happy.

They are SO happy: they love each other, they love their friends, they are always quoting Bible verses and helping the elderly. They make me feel quite bitter and jaded... but I just don't think life is easy. They make it look so easy, too easy- do you know what I mean? They home school, the kids do their chores and take cute pictures, the older girls bake ALL the time and the girls don't date... they court and swing dance. Because if I have it right, somehow one courts through swing dancing. This could be another reason for why I date, occasionally.

Seriously, jaded, bitter and possibly jealous. And maybe a small part of me wishes I could go back there.

I read once that wisdom is the death of innocence. I think this is why I go back to this blog...a happy innocent life sounds good some days. And another part of me is waiting for it to fall apart- because somehow that would make more sense to me. Is that horrible or just honest? Can THAT happy be real? I'm seriously baffled...